Sometimes I want To be a leaf A leaf is peaceful A leaf is part of something beautiful Something meaningful I am A part of something But I am not always convinced Of it’s beauty Or meaning
These are two really great links to a comic about depression that I really related to. I tend to complicate things and try too hard to be profound. These comics get right to the point. So here are the links: Depression Part I Depression Part II I celebrated a year of clean […]
First of all, to the people who have helped me in the last 10 days, (and are reading this)I must say- thank you. You know who you are, I hope, and I feel incredibly blessed to have your support. You could have let me get lost in the woodwork and you didn’t. I feel like […]
Last night I looked up how much trazadone I would have to take to die, and it’s a lot. Way more than I have. I also realized that if I took that much trazadone, or more than is prescribed at all, that would be violating my clean date, something I’m not willing to do, even […]
I left home three years ago to look for it. I packed my old backpack with a few random things- a raincoat, a water bottle, some cash I had saved up- I wasn’t sure what I would need on this journey, and I didn’t care. I told my family I was leaving, which I shouldn’t […]
I haven’t had a day like the one I had today since I was at the hospital. I have come to the conclusion that calling the suicide hotline just to chat is a little weird. But I still think it’s better than not reaching out at all. It took me three hours of pushing snooze […]
So, I just called the suicide hotline. Here’s what happened… I got home to my apartment, got into bed, and told myself that I wasn’t going to get out of bed for the rest of the week. All the lights in my apartment were on; the second hand on my clock seemed to be echoing […]
